Currently I am in my last year of university. Like all things the end might seem far away, but two weeks ago it hit me that my days at school are ending really soon. My whole life I have been going to school and now it starts to hit me that after this there will be no time, no school ever again. I first did my bachelor in Law in Rotterdam and by the time my bachelor ended I was 21 and had no clue what to do with my life. So I decided to study again and do a Pre-Master in European Union Studies and the Master afterwards. Why, would you think. Because school felt safe and studying is fun. At school you know what to do and you have your friends around you the whole time. You know when you have an exam and you know what will be expected from you. Now my lasts days at uni are here, (I am 23 now) I want to enjoy every last minute of it. And I know I will because I have to write my thesis so that means spending hours and hours in the library, drinking too much water and eat too much shitty food from the café.
In the meantime I also have to think about the future, that is the thing that scares the
shit out of me and my friends. Real life is arriving, what are we going to do after school? Finding a job these days is really hard. Some of us are going to do an internship, some of us want to work. I want to work, I feel like I am ready now. But maybe only because of the fact that me and my boyfriend Mike are going away next year for our long planned world trip. So maybe this year I end up at a job I didn’t study for because in one year we will be gone.. But that is fine! After my world trip though I really want to work!
How to deal with stress?
Studying is fun, I really love it but there are also downsides to it for me. From the age of twelf I started to have hyperventilation ‘attacks’ or ‘moments’. I normally do breathe very fast and when I feel stressed I can end up having a ‘hyper’ moment in which I have pain in my heart and can’t breathe properly. It was in the period when I went to high school. I had anxiety to fail my tests. I know that now, but I didn’t know that at the time. I got into therapy to control my breathing and all was fine after. One tip from me to you is when you expierence stress, find a moment for yourself at one point of the day and just lay down and focus on your breathing. This really helps relieving stress. Because you focus so much on your breathing, your mind has no room to think of anything else and you will calm down. I don’t have hyperventilation that often anymore, maybe once a year now. I feel when it could come and then I try to take a moment and lay down amd the anxiety feeling will be gone before I can start to hyperventilate.
But that doesn’t mean I do not majorly stress out everytime I have an exam. For me it is like running a marathon, and I definitely need a good shower afterwards (TMI). What I now do to stay calm is I use homeopathic medicins that help me stay calm. They are called Valdispert. It has valerian in it. Valerian soothes nerves, calms feelings of agitation, improves the readiness to go to sleep and soothes feelings of anxiety and stress. It is not bad for you and it has no side affects. If you suffer from anxiety, nerves or major stress attacks before an exam I really recommend valerian. It helped for me! Good luck studying and try not to stress out.
Now it is time to study again because one thing deadlines do not do, is wait!
Hope to see you soon on my blog again, with love Irina